James Randolph was a fixture on the Waynesburg College Campus. No one called him Professor Randolph. To everyone he was simply Fuzzy.
died this week at the age of 88. To say he was one of the most loved
people I have ever known is an understatement. Everyone who ever knew
him loved him. The reasons for that are very simple; Fuzzy loved life
and everyone in it. This way of being was returned to him a
Fuzzy when I started Waynesburg College in the fall of 1979. He was a
professor of music and I only ever had one class from him. But on a
small campus he was a daily presence in the lives of everyone there.
He was one of the most wonderfully eccentric people I have ever
known. Fully at home with who he was. Brilliant. Humble. He wrapped
warm strong arms around his whole community and you knew you were
loved and safe.
realized, while thinking of this for the last day, that my specific
memories of him are few. The day he walked into the student union,
unannounced, and serenaded us with his bagpipes. His hands in the
fall, stained with the henna-like secretions of the wild walnuts he
had shelled, because using gloves would take away from the
experience. Touring the college museum that he curated and hearing
the stories of decades of Waynesburg history. Seeing him around town
and campus regularly in the thirty-plus years since I graduated and
always being happy for the experience.
an overall sense of his presence that overwhelms the day-to-day. His
love of learning and the childlike wonder and curiosity he shared.
The many times he would just break out into song. The kind words he
always had for everyone. The joy he wore for everyone to see.
years he conducted the campus choral group, The Lamplighters. I was
never a member because even though I love music you probably
shouldn’t have to hear me sing. Generations of students under his
care produced joyful noise.
was a Lamplighter, in the truest sense. In his presence there was
always light and warmth. He lit a fire of curiosity and a love of
learning in those around him. Whatever darkness there may be in the
world can be pushed away by his example.
Peace, Fuzzy. The world is poorer for your absence, but so much
richer for your journey.
explain. I didn’t actually speak another language. Speaking Dutch
was a phrase, possibly a colloquialism of southwest Pennsylvania, to
describe someone with a speech impediment of some sort. My guess is
that it was a reference to the accents of the Pennsylvania Dutch (who
were mostly German, but whatever).
my experience, was meant as an insult. Probably to me and the
have no memory of what I sounded like. It wasn’t a stutter. I don’t
think it was a lisp. I remember not really understanding what people
meant when it was brought to my attention, which happened mainly in
the form of being teased by my peers.
a genetic history of speech problems in my family (though I recognize
that it’s probably not truly genetic and could have been corrected
with speech therapy). My great uncle Frank was, to use another
negative and inaccurate description, ‟tongue-tied.” Apparently my
Uncle Donny, who died nearly two decades before I was born was the
same. I still have cousins who have some minor variations on this.
first to fourth grade I saw a speech therapist named Mr. Rice. The
content of these sessions are lost to my memory. I don’t know if it
was every week, or once a month. My main memory is the day when he
shook my hand, told me congratulations, and said I didn’t have to
come back anymore. This is probably the first time someone shook my
hand and congratulated me for achieving something, even if I wasn’t
quite sure what it was. I don’t remember progress, or anything
changing. I still heard myself the same way I always did. But
apparently I didn’t talk Dutch any more.
teased about this, but I was also teased about a lot of other things,
so even though I’m talking about it here specific incidents don’t
really stand out. I don’t think I was ever sensitive about this
issue specifically, probably because I was never really able to hear
myself through other ears. It certainly didn’t stop me from
talking, to individuals or large groups. I talk in front of people
all of the time these days and it never crosses my mind. It’s a
pretty vague memory of my childhood. I’m not even sure what made me
think of it recently. But it has made me think about some stuff.
I know I
consciously made an effort to lose my Greene County accent. I’m not
even sure that’s a thing. Being south of Pittsburgh it’s a
derivation of the classic Yinzer, I’m sure, though most people I
know back home tend to pronounce it more like ‟Younz” than
‟Yinz.” My Mom and her parents were from West Virgina so I leaned
more toward ‟Y’all” anyway. I didn’t want to say either. At
some point in my late teens I ran into someone who asked me what part
of the South I was from. Really?
up in a world where people said things like Chimley, and ‟I need to
brasch my teeth,” (long vowel sound in that, pronounced kind of
like brace but with a shh on the end). We warshed our clothes and
sometimes on the weekends went shopping in Warshington. Once I became
aware of these things I made an effort to correct myself. I was so
appalled by Yinz that to this day, after living in Pittsburgh for
twenty-six years, I can’t do a credible imitation of the accent
(which may speak more to my abilities as a mimic than anything else).
Some things still slip out. I’ll let out an ain’t once in awhile
because the English language still doesn’t have a good contraction
for Am Not. We don’t have a good inclusive word for a group of
people either, so I think I just avoid referring to y’all at all.
I’m also pretty sure that redding up my room describes a completely
different process than cleaning it.
made a conscious effort to red-up the way I spoke, trying to become
aware of tics and accents and colloquialisms as much as one can. I
don’t know if any of us are ever entirely aware of how we sound to
others. I increased my vocabulary through reading and found new ways
to express my ideas. Words became my life. I’m a writer. I speak in
public frequently. Sometimes I speak in public about things I’ve
written. Being good with language became a goal for me, and part of
that goal was not to be judged for the way I spoke.
aware of how this ties in with ideas of class and education.
worked with a local politician from my home district. He too had
worked to change the way he spoke. One of his goals, stated to me
overtly many times, was to be a good orator. He used Cicero as an
example. The fact that he used the word orator and referenced Cicero
says something. He used a lot of big words, usually to good effect.
He took a lot of good-natured ribbing about his erudition from his
compatriots in government. But when he was speaking to many of his
constituents, comprised of many lower income and poorly educated
families, he often sounded not only pretentious, but part of a world
they simply could not understand. He didn’t seem to understand that
the word ‟colorful” worked much better than ‟polychromatic”
with most of his audiences.
big words does not mean you are actually communicating when you use
are a lot of people who feel left out of the conversation. Because of
their level of education. Because of their vocabulary. Because of
their lack of exposure to many issues and topics that effect them. There is a
genuine lack of comprehension because of these things. It is
difficult to bridge that communication gap.
is definitely a function of class. Funding to our public schools
continues to be cut, limiting the educational opportunities of
millions of people. School districts in poor neighborhoods simply
don’t have the money to teach these skills adequately. Brilliant
teachers are hampered every day by the fiscal realities of their
district. Higher education now comes with crippling debt. More and
more people have the tools of language and communication less and
likes to feel stupid. Without these tools to communicate ideas more
fully they are left frustrated and angry, both misunderstood and
attempting to address this is difficult. Finding the words to discuss
this issue without sounding like the cliché of ‟Intellectual
Liberal” does not come easy. I’m afraid that I sound like one of
my old tormentors, making fun of someone for ‟talking Dutch” when
they have no idea what I’m referring to. But it feels as though any
attempt to bridge this gap comes across as ‟talking down” or
‟dumbing down” or ‟aiming at the lowest common denominator.”
the problem with these phrases is self-evident.
whole post started out as one thing and then the topic highjacked me
and became something else. But not really. I began this as a little
personal anecdote and it became a metaphor for bigger issues. I got
to the point right before the break and realized I had no idea what
to say next. For all of my talk of communication I stumbled because I
was having difficulty talking about these ideas without expressing,
intentional or not, some kind of condescension. This illustrates the
core of the problem.
though my memories are vague I’m pretty sure one of the things Mr.
Rice taught me was to listen more closely. I wasn’t pronouncing
words correctly because I wasn’t hearing them accurately. I was
unable to form sounds until I processed them.
a pretty clear lesson here, one I and most other people need to pay
attention to; Listen. Even when the ideas being expressed seem
foreign to you. Especially when you know those who are speaking may
not have the same words or experiences or entire frame of reference
that you do. Try to understand what is being communicated and
remember that a lot of it has nothing to do with words. When you are
speaking or writing, remember your audience. Be aware of what you are
communicating and how it may be perceived. Not everyone can hear or
understand the language you use.
‟When did music become so important?” Don Draper asked in the first episode of Season 5 of Mad Men (“A Little Kiss”). His young wife Megan responds, ‟It’s always been important.”
By this episode the show was set in the mid 1960s, so this spoke to an obvious generation gap. Both characters are right, in their context. Music has always been important. It just wasn’t until the 50s and 60s that it became a dominant cultural force that informed and influenced millions of people. Radio and records and other advancements of technology, as well as the vast expansion of youth culture, made this possible in ways that people of Don Draper’s generation just couldn’t quite comprehend.
This has been true for fiftyish years, with The Beatles appearance on Ed Sullivan as the hundredth monkey tipping point that changed the world in this regard. I’m sure a quick Google perusal of the internet will turn up thousands of articles about the larger cultural ramifications of this. The point has also been made that this is something that is specific to this moment in time and that in many ways we have already moved past it.
That isn’t meant as a ‟Rock is Dead!” declaration. It’s an acknowledgement that the world has kept on moving and that the cultural forces that led to this are no longer present. The internet has changed the way we consume music and interact with those who make it. For all the success of a Lady Gaga or a Justin Bieber it just doesn’t seem like any of the current batch of stars have the social relevance or staying power of the artists who preceded them. I know how much that sounds like an old guy decrying ‟Back in my day!!!” but that’s truly not my intention. I want new artists to succeed. More importantly I want young people to have the same kinds of joyous experiences with music, live and otherwise, that I have had. I don’t know if that’s possible anymore, for much larger reasons than the cliched and wrong-headed opinion that they ‟just don’t make good music anymore.” I just don’t think there is the same kind of infrastructure that will allow for a David Bowie, or a Madonna, or a U2 or an REM to emerge, let alone enjoy the longevity and social relevence of these and many other artists. I hope I’m wrong.
currently reading a book of essays by Chuck Klosterman called ‟But What if We’re Wrong?” that addresses the idea that in the future
everything we think we know about the present will be wrong. The
things we think are important now will be seen through the eyes of
history and retrospect with a much wider perspective than we are
currently capable of. As proof of this he reminds us of the way we
interpret history now. Van Gogh and Kafka were failures in their
lives but now one is the most famous artist ever and the other has
joined the very framework of our language as an adjective. Custer was
once seen as an American hero. Now he’s thought of as a genocidal
maniac. Try convincing a farmer in the Dark Ages that we live in a
heliocentric universe. The world keeps turning and our reality keeps
changing around us and for the most part, in our limited time here
and limited sense of perspective, we just don’t notice. We assume
things will always be the way they are until they aren’t. I can’t
imagine a world without pop music and the music industry in it, but
then one hundred years ago people couldn’t imagine a world with
instantaneous global communication. Or one without polio.
Rock and Roll, and all of the variations of popular music associated
with it, for all of its importance to those of us who care, may be a
minor blip in the course of history, generating little more than a
footnote in whatever passes for a college textbook in the year 2112.
quote Jeff Albertson, the Comic Book Guy from The Simpsons, ‟Oh,
I’ve wasted my life.”
thing is, this is true for pretty much everything we currently engage
in. No matter how much we love something, no matter how much we think
it is an essential part of our culture, no matter how much it defines
our lives (I’m looking at you, sports fans), history says it not
only won’t last but will probably be marginalized and misunderstood
by future scholars.
if we accept this nihilistic point of view, why get really into
anything other than the mechanics of survival? I’ll get back to
am certainly part of the generation that was born into a world where
music has always been a defining cultural artifact, and I’m very
aware of how this has shaped and influenced my way of interacting
with the world. For me, like Megan said, music has always been
important. And by important I mean in ways that go well beyond simply
liking a song. I am admittedly a music hobbyist who engages with it
in a less-than-casual fashion. I continually look for new music. I
get obsessive over musicians and want to know about them as
personalities, looking into their lives and biographies much deeper
than most people do. Music has always been a soundtrack to my
day-to-day that went beyond just being in the background.
grew up in an incredibly rural area. My parents were in their early
40s when I was born. My paternal grandmother, who lived with us, was
born in 1884. I was surrounded by adults who had grown to adulthood
in a very different world than the one I would come to inhabit. Until
I was twelve I lived in a small two-story six-room house of bare,
unpainted wood with a tin roof. We did not have running water. There
was a hand-dug water well with a hand pump in the front yard and an
outhouse in the back yard. I’m not complaining here. I actually
have very good memories of growing up there and I believe those
circumstances taught me valuable life lessons. But something in me
yearned for more.
books and music were the twin explosions of color in my sepia-toned
Appalachian youth, and they have always had a natural association in
my mind. Comics took me to cities and other countries and other
planets and other dimensions. The colorfully costumed heroes taught
me to dream bigger dreams and to imagine a world beyond the confines
of the hollow I grew up in.
was always present in my home. Dad had played guitar and mandolin in
a Hillbilly band with his uncle and cousins when he was young. His
mother played piano and the accordion. That whole side of the family
had musical talent, but because of age I never really had the
opportunity to experience it first-hand. But there was always a radio
in the house, usually tuned to WWVA from Wheeling, West Virginia,
home of country music. I remember latching onto songs like Tiger by
the Tail by Buck Owens, and Folsom Prison Blues by Johnny Cash, and
Counting Flowers on the Wall by the Statler Brothers (probably
because they name-checked Captain Kangaroo, who I was big fan of
when I was four). These are overt memories for me. I was into songs.
British Invasion and the Beatles and the whole eruption of the music
industry in the 60s began to be woven into the fabric of everything
aimed at youth. I saw ads for Frank Zappa and the Mothers of Invention in comic books. The image of the T.Rex album The Slider stands out as
an image that stared at me from the double page
ads for record clubs I saw in every comic.
Beatles had a Saturday morning cartoon. So did the Jackson 5. The
Monkees were a weekly live action pastiche of Beatles inspired
frenzy. The Banana Splits, Josie and the Pussycats and the Groovie Ghoulies had weekly music videos interspersed with every episode. The cartoon version of the Archies had the #1 hit song in
1969 with Sugar Sugar. This hit launched Bubblegum Pop which led directly to a lot of
what became the Glam Rock movement in Great Britain. David Bowie and
Elton John were singing about Spacemen. Alice Cooper was a horror
comic come to life and KISS were simply superheroes from the first
time I saw them.
engaged in fannish activities well before I could afford to seriously
begin collecting albums. On our trips into town I not only bought
comics (always), but I also started to pick up copies of teenybopper
music mags like Tiger Beat and 16. I read the articles and hung the
posters that came with the mags on my bedroom wall. The Osmonds and
the Jackson 5 and David Cassidy and probably many others (hands up...
who remembers Tony DeFranco and the DeFranco Family and their ‟big”
hit, Heartbeat, It’s a Lovebeat?). I think I was trying to identify
with the larger than life qualities of these performers more than
having crushes on them. I never entered a ‟Win a Date With...”
contest. I would run around outside pretending I was a superhero from
the comics, and lip sync in front of mirror pretending I was a young
started buying the singles I heard on the AM radio stations. Over
time I moved on to FM radio and much better music. Without the
guidance of an older sibling I missed the glory days of Led Zeppelin
and Black Sabbath and many others of that period. The truth is I
think Sabbath would have simply weirded me out back then. I’m also
very aware of how the bands I ended up really getting into had that
extra element of the visual. Superheroes and Rock and Roll. Deep
Purple was an awesome band, but they were a bunch of dudes with long
hair and blue jeans. I could see that anywhere. Did you see what Elton
John was wearing?
a trend that has never really gone away for me, not completely.
F-f-f-Fashion! My musical tastes now span a pretty wide cross-section
of genres and styles, but I always come back to the performance and
glamour. The Sweet, Queen, and Cheap Trick all fell into this
category for me as the 70s roared on. Adam Ant, wearing Indian
warpaint, a colonial greatcloak and a tri-corner hat caught my eye on
Solid Gold and I was hooked. I wasn’t aware of Bauhaus until years
later but if I had seen the videos of their live performances in 1979
I would have been all over that.
the Hair Metal of the 80s didn’t grab me at the time, in spite of
the over-the-top costuming and makeup. I think once KISS took the
makeup off I just felt done with that style. This coincided with a
general malaise I was feeling at the time for the styles of music I
had been listening to. It’s no surprise to me now that this is when
I first discovered Bowie’s Berlin period through Heroes and started
down a path of Punk and New Wave and College Rock.
discovered lots of new bands I loved; The Replacements, The Pixies,
Love and Rockets, Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds, The Jazz Butcher, PJ
Harvey, and many, many more over the next thirty years. I bought a
lot of vinyl and then replaced most of it on CD. I went on obscure
tangents to the extent that an awful lot of the popular music of the 90s
remains pretty peripheral to my life. I go back and reclaim things I
lost and go back and discover things I missed.
it seems I’m always looking for that new, favorite band. Something
new I can get into with the same enthusiasm I used to, though that
seems increasingly difficult. Age and jaded tastes and feeling like
I’ve heard it all before gets in the way. I have moments of this,
still. I was crazy into the White Stripes, but then lost interest
pretty quickly. I was pretty obsessed with PJ Harvey but I now admit
that her last few projects just haven’t resonated with me. Call me
fickle, but she’s an old love now, one I can go back to for comfort
and familiarity. But I crave the excitement of the new.
have a new favorite band that, at least right now, are hitting all of
TheStruts are a modern Glam Power Pop band from Derby. The band features Adam
Slack on guitar, Jed Elliot on bass, Gethin Davies on drums and Luke
Spiller on vocals. Now I want to say upfront that they’re probably
not doing anything very new, but they are doing it very, very well.
The songs are fun, hook-laden, and anthemic. Pretty much every song
on their recent debut album, Everybody
is a catchy, earworm singalong. That’s not a complaint. The album
simply fills me with energy and makes me happy. Their image,
specifically as embodied by Spiller, is full-on Glam Rock. I saw them
on The Late Show with Steven Colbert and then watched a couple of videos
and knew immediately that I was hooked.
luck would have it I turned on to them about a week after they played
a show in Pittsburgh. I figured it would be ages before I had an
opportunity to see them. A few weeks after that they announced
a show at the Rock and Roll Hall of Fame in Cleveland. That’s
two-hour drive from here, and believe it or not I had never been to
the Hall of Fame. So I decided to make a day of it. On their website,
when they announced the show, they also announced a contest for a VIP
Meet and Greet as well as tickets to the show. I never enter online
contests but I thought, why not?
trip to Cleveland was amazing, a pilgrimage to both of my primary
hobbies; The Rock and Roll Hall of Fame and the original homes of the
two creators of Superman, Jerry Siegel and Joe Shuster (though that’s
mostly a separate story from the one I’m telling). The Hall of Fame
was enormous, full of artifacts to a cultural phenomenon that, if
Chuck Klosterman is right, won’t matter in a couple of hundred
years. But for right now, for those of us who have been formed by
this phenomenon, it was a building filled with objects of history and
power. John Lennon’s glasses and Ringo’s drum kit. Elvis
Presley’s gold lame’ suit. David Bowie’s Ziggy Stardust
jumpsuit. Michael Jackson’s glove. The guitar played by Odetta Holmes on the day Mahalia Jackson encouraged Martin Luther King to, ‟Tell ‛em
about the Dream, Martin!”
the Struts in this venue, surrounded by this history, felt right to
me. It’s difficult for me to say this without sounding like I am
exaggerating, but I kind of feel like I had waited my whole life to
see this show. The energy, the songs, the costumes and spectacle. It
was simply one of the best concerts I have ever seen, and Luke
spiller is genuinely one of the best and most engaging front men I’ve
ever witnessed. I don’t say that lightly. I’ve seen a lot of
try to put it in perspective. What I want and expect out of a concert
depends a lot on my expectations. I’ve seen Lloyd Cole perform,
just him and a guitar, several times. I love his songs, I love his
voice, and what I want out of his show is very different than what I
want from a different kind of band, and I’ve never been
disappointed in him. I’ve been lucky enough to see a lot of bands I
really like in very small, intimate venues and have been privileged
to meet many of them.
deep down, where the kid who discovered Rock through School’s Out
and Rebel, Rebel, and Rock and Roll All Night still lives, when I see
one of these bands, I want to see a show. I’ve seen Alice Cooper... a
lot. I’ve seen KISS a number of times. I saw David Bowie. I saw
Queen in 1979. They were all amazing shows, including all of the
music and spectacle I love. In every one of those cases though, I
only saw them after they had become huge, in giant venues. For a few
of them I was close to the stage, but for the most part they were
always at a remove from the audience. For The Struts I felt like I
was getting to see them early in their career. Early enough for it to
be a much more intimate experience than I’ve ever had with these
other bands I mentioned. It felt like I imagine it would have felt to
see Queen in 1974, or Bowie right before Ziggy Stardust blew up, or
Alice Cooper at the Whiskey in Los Angeles.
can’t really say anything about Luke Spiller that hasn’t been
said in the rock press. He looks the part of Glam Rock star, a visual
cross between Freddie Mercury and a young Tim Curry. His voice has
amazing power and range. You can hear elements of Mercury, as well as
a touch of Noddy Holder from Slade (to my ears, anyway). He went
through several costume changes over the course of the show, clothes,
I discovered later, that were designed for him by Zandra Rhodes, who
designed costumes for both Freddy Mercury and Brian May. He commanded
the crowd, leading sing-alongs and cheers, making it impossible not
to have a good time. For one of the encore songs, a nice ballad, he
left the stage, waded into the audience, and convinced everyone to
sit on the floor around him as he sang. He was the focal point, but
the whole audience was the show.
Photo by Amy Lombard. New York Times.
that the rest of the band was forgotten. They were tight and on cue
and every member got his moment in the spotlight. Not an easy task
given their leader’s glowing charisma, but you walked away knowing
that you had seen a band and not a solo performer and some backup
They've opened for The Rolling Stones and as I'm writing they're scheduled to open for Guns 'n' Roses, so they're getting the opportunity to find a huge audience. Will
they last? Will they ever be as big as Queen or Madonna? Probably
not. That’s a long shot under the best of circumstances, and as I’ve
said I don’t think our current paradigm allows for that to happen
anymore. Will they be remembered in the year 2112? Does it really
haven’t been this excited for a new band in many, many years. I
want to hang posters of Luke and the rest of The Struts all over my
walls. I want to smear gold makeup on my cheeks and lip sync in front of
my mirror. It’s not just about recapturing my youth (though some of
it undoubtedly is). It’s about living in the moment. Enjoying our
time before it is lost to history. Engaging with the things that
bring you joy (yes, even sports), because life is hard and the best
thing we can leave the future is a life well lived. We have this
moment and nothing more. The past is only nostalgia if you aren’t
living now. The future will come and wipe it all away, but live and
love and laugh because in this moment we are alive. Do you love it, right now? Then it matters, right now.
I wanna taste love and pain/Wanna feel pride and shame
I don’t wanna take my time/Don't wanna waste one line
Most of my friends and the more regular readers on my blog know I’m
a big fan of the stories of King Arthur and the whole Camelot myth
cycle. I consider myself a pretty well-read amateur scholar of the
topic. I’ve read some of the medieval manuscripts and looked into
the historical evidence (and lack thereof). I’ve read a bunch of
analysis of the symbolism and mythic themes running through the
literature. I’ve read a ton of contemporary Arthurian fiction. My
first novel, King of Summer, is loaded with the symbols and my last
novel, Bedivere: The King’s Right Hand is my version of the tale.
This weekend, my friend Marcel and I went to see Hampton High
School’s production of Spamalot, the Broadway musical version of
Monty Python and the Holy Grail. I have no real connection to Hampton
High School, but my friend Dan Franklin teaches there. He is the
director and producer of their spring plays. Dan is passionate about
these projects and works his butt off with the kids. His love of what
he does is obvious and his students are lucky to have him in their
Two years ago we went to see their production of Young Frankenstein.
Dan has always been very supportive of my art and writing, so I went
primarily to be supportive of him. I’m now embarrassed to say that
my expectations weren’t high. ‟It’s a high school play,” I
thought. No disrespect to Dan, but the high school plays I had seen
previously were pretty amateur. Young Frankenstein was remarkable! It
completely changed my expectations of what a high school play could
be. The level of production was one of the most professional things
I’ve ever seen on stage. The talent of these kids was outstanding.
To say I was blown away is an understatement. Last year they staged
The Addams Family, but I had a conflict of schedule, so I had to miss
it. I wasn’t going to let that happen again.
The day Dan announced that tickets were on sale I went on line and
purchased. I didn’t pick specific seats, just signed up for ‟Best
When we arrived tonight we were in the first two seats in the front row, center section.
Marcel asked if I had a preference, so I took the aisle seat. Seat
#A101. While we waited for the show to start I randomly quipped, ‟So,
I’m used to seeing improv shows. I can just yell ‛Freeze' and
then go up on stage and join in, right?” Marcel said, ‟Yeah, I’m
pretty sure that’s how that works.”
So, the play began. It was once again, an amazing production. The
sets, the performances, the staging, the music, singing and
dancing... the talent of these kids is just off the charts. Everyone
on stage was good, but a couple of performances really stood out.
Alex Wood played the duel roles of Dennis Galahad and Prince Herbert.
Two years ago he played the monster in Young Frankenstein. He has
remarkable stage presence, comedic timing, and physicality. A young
man named Tyler Anderson played Patsy and I simply could not take my
eyes off him. His facial expressions and body language sold his
performance. His enthusiasm and joy just radiated in every line. So
The climax of the play approached. King Arthur, Patsy, and the rest
of the Knights of the very round table found the final clue to the
location of the Holy Grail. Someone had carved A101 into a rock. They
weren’t able to figure it out until the Hand of God (an actual
giant hand protruding from the top of castle battlement), pointed out
to the audience.
The Holy Grail was under my seat.
I want to stress that I had no idea that this was going to happen and
that I ended up in that seat through the magic of ‟Best Available”
on the internet.
Patsy came off the stage, reached under my seat, and pulled out the
Grail. He took my hand and led me onto the stage. They asked me my
name, congratulated me, and asked me to strike a pose.
If you know me you know that I am not particularly shy or prone to
They handed me the Grail and I struck a pose.
Patsy led me back to my seat and the play ended with their final
number. The sheer unlikelihood of all of this, the synchronicity of
There are reasons I believe in magic.
Marcel and I backstage with the Director, Dan Franklin
I was recently interviewed by Frances Joyce for Mt. Lebanon Neighbors magazine, a locally produced neighborhood newspaper. Copies of this article also appear in Upper St. Clair Neighbors and Southpointe Neighbors. There is not an online version of this available, so I've posted a copy of it below for your reading enjoyment. Thanks, Fran. Thanks also to Evelyn Pryce (Kristin Ross), another local author who recommended me to Fran.
For all the live concerts I’ve gone to in my life, and there are
more than a few, I haven’t seen a lot of the big name classic rock
bands. I spent a lot of years in smaller venues seeing smaller acts
and actively skipped some big names. I have some regrets about this,
but it’s where my head was at the time.
Until Wednesday, March 16 I had never seen The Who. If I was going to
wait, I caught a good one. This is their 50 Years of the Who Greatest
Hits Tour, though I think the anniversary was last year. This show
was rescheduled from a cancelled date last fall.
My confession here is that I was really never that big of a fan of
The Who. Now, before Who Heads jump all over me, let me explain. I
never disliked them. I just never got really into them like
I’m known to do with bands and artists. I’m not sure why. But
they’ve been omnipresent for as long as I’ve listened to music,
so it’s not like I’ve been unaware of their work. In the
intervening years I’ve picked up most of their albums and become
very familiar with them.
I was too young to have caught the earliest British Invasion era of
The Who. I probably saw them on the Ed Sullivan Show when I was a
kid. It was on pretty religiously when I was growing up and I have
vague memories of seeing bands, but none that I specifically
For some reason when I was a tween I bought a copy of a magazine
about the movie version of the Who album Tommy. I had never heard the
album at that time, and wouldn’t see the actual movie for another
fifteen years or more. But for some reason, probably because of the
amazingly weird visuals of that film, I was kind of obsessed with it
Not my actual copy, but this is it.
I’m pretty sure it was because of Elton John. I was getting into
Elton at the time, mainly because of the rock mag pictures I had seen
of his outrageous costumes. I liked the singles I had heard by the
that point as well and owned 45s of Rocket Man and Bennie and the
In the movie Elton played the part of the Pinball Wizard. I was hearing his
version of the song on the radio. I was much more aware
of Elton than The Who at this point, so much so that I don’t think
I even realized it was a cover of someone else’s song. Dumb kid. I
went out to buy the single, grabbed a copy of Pinball Wizard, brought
it home and put it on my record player...
And it wasn’t Elton singing. It was some other version. When I
looked I saw it was by The Who and I had picked up the wrong version
by mistake. Okay, I can now say that I realize it was the right
version, but at the time my disappointment may have played a part in
my never getting more into them.
Not many years later I picked up a copy of Meaty, Beaty, Big, and
Bouncy, which I now know was a Greatest Hits compilation of The Who’s
early singles. I liked it a lot, but had trouble reconciling these
songs with the radio hits I was hearing in the mid to late 70s. I
think coming at the band from all of these different angles prevented
them from gelling in my mind as a cohesive concept.
In 1979 there was a terrible tragedy at a Who concert in Cincinnati
where eleven fans were killed and eight others hurt. It would be an
overstatement to say I was almost at the show, but there was a
short-lived possibility I could have been. My friend Howard and I had
gone to number of concerts around that time, at least one of which
was a spur of the moment, day of the show decision. I remember we
discussed making a road trip to Cincinnati for the show. It was
probably a less than fifteen minute fantasy because it was too far
away at the time and it was winter and our parents would have lost their
minds, and I only remember the conversation because of what
happened, and my reaction when I saw it on the news the following day.
So, finally, thirty-seven years later, I finally saw The Who... half of the original band anyway. It was an amazing show. Roger
Daltry’s voice is still really strong and very powerful. Pete
Townsend was just consummate on guitar. I know, intellectually, how
good he is, but to hear it live while watching him was something of a
The performance was strong and I enjoyed the songs and music a lot.
But some of that was my awareness of the history represented on that
stage. These two men are two of the architects of modern Rock and
Roll. They helped invent the lexicon of the live rock show. When
Townsend windmilled his arm I saw the entire history of The Who in
that movement. The same thing when Daltry swung the microphone around
by its cord. I’ve seen this a million times. It’s in the DNA of
Rock and of Rock fans. These guys played at the Monterey Pop Festival
in 1967. They stood on the stage at Woodstock. They have known all of
the legends of Rock as friends and peers. Fifty years of being
The Who, spanning most of the history of the art form and having
stood on its spires. Fifty years of embodying a Pop Culture
mythology. Enormous legends living in the fragile shells of human
I want to take a moment to talk about the opening act, because I was
really impressed. For the original date Joan Jett was listed as the
the opener, which made me pretty excited. But, since the show had to
be rescheduled, Jett wasn’t able to do the make-up dates. I was
disappointed until I saw who was taking her place.
Tal Wilkenfeld is a 20-something bass guitar prodigy. I first saw her
as Jeff Beck’s bass player on a televised concert. She kind of blew
me away. I have a fondness for the bass anyway, and here was this
obviously very young woman with a mass of curly red hair, playing the
hell out of a bass guitar that was nearly bigger than she was,
holding her own with one of the acknowledged guitar gods. She has
racked up a pretty impressive resume. In addition to Beck she has
played with Jackson Browne, Hrebie Hancock, and a bunch of other name
Her first CD, Transformation, is an instrumental jazz album
where her skills are evident. I don’t listen to a whole lot of jazz or
instrumentals, but I kept coming back to this. At the concert I was
surprised to hear her sing. She has a very strong voice, and while it
seems she is moving away from the jazz stylings into a more
singer/songwriter rock direction, her playing wasn’t in the least
diminished or hidden in the mix.
I’ve included three videos below. There aren’t a whole lot of
good ones of her singing out there yet (apparently this past November
was her first show as a vocalist). The first is from an Australian TV
show, so it’s a little weirdly formatted, but it’s a good example
of her playing. The second is her from a recent Who show. The third is
one of her singing Leonard Cohen’s Chelsea Hotel, which is a
song I love, so I had to include it.
Classic Rock and brand new music. It was a good night to be a fan.
Last week I saw the touring production of Cabaret at the Benedum Center in Pittsburgh. In general I’m not an avid fan of musicals or musical theater. I like the Rocky Horror Picture Show and have a tremendous nostalgic fondness for the movie version of Hair. I have never seen live productions of either. I saw Camelot a few years back, but that was more in the interest of my King Arthur fandom. A couple of years ago I saw a high school production of Young Frankenstein that was one of the most professional and entertaining plays I have ever seen, expanding my expectations of what a school production can be. But I don’t pay a whole lot of attention to Broadway. I haven’t even jumped on the Hamilton bandwagon yet.
But there is something about Cabaret. The play premiered in 1966, but it is the 1972 Bob Fosse movie version with Liza Minelli and Joel Grey that most people think of. I saw this on TV when I was probably twelve or so. Given the content of the story which openly addressed topics like homosexuality and abortion I can’t imagine how heavily edited this had to be for television. The plot was probably incomprehensible. I didn’t actually remember anything about the plot anyway. But the music and the imagery, primarily the imagery, stayed with me.
Cabaret was part of the formative Pop Cultural stew of the early 1970s when I was coming of age. Connecting lines can easily be drawn to Glam Rock and David Bowie and Rocky Horror and comics and the concepts of the Persona and the Mask that I keep coming back to. There is an atmosphere of decadence that surrounds all of these, if we broadly define Decadence in this context as deviating from the norm. Each of us spends time trying to define who we are by trying on various masks in our lives, some we continue to wear because we are expected to. At times each of us feels like an outsider, a deviant from the norm. We feel Other than those around us.
I’ll come back to that idea.
The plot of Cabaret revolves around an English singer/dancer named Sally Bowles and her relationship with American would-be novelist Cliff Bradshaw. Most of the action takes place in Berlin, in either the boarding house where they live or in The Kit Kat Klub where Sally performs. Part of the ongoing back story, in addition to their relationships, is the need to make ends meet and pay their rent. It is the 1930s. America is in the Depression and Germany is still recovering from the economic disaster of World War I. Cliff teaches English and receives money from his family. Sally is nearly homeless when she loses her position at the club. Their landlady’s only income is from the small rooms she is able to rent, and their neighbor is obviously a prostitute. The financial situation seems like a minor point in the larger picture, but I think it is significant. It is one of the issues that serves to distract our cast from the larger problems happening around them.
What gives the story weight is that all of this plays out against the backdrop of the rise of the Nazi party. This is referenced early in the play, but it is only at the end of Act I that the real presence is felt. Act II is much darker in tone and the play ends in a pretty bleak place given what we now know about the Nazis and the Holocaust.
Sally’s way of dealing with the dark side of life is to simply pretend it doesn’t exist. She wants to sing and dance and party. Life is too short to waste on bad times. Life’s a Cabaret, old chum. Her philosophy is summed up in the title song.
‟Come taste the wine, Come hear the band.
Come blow your horn, Start celebrating;
Right this way, Your table’s waiting.”
She doesn’t want to acknowledge that anything is wrong. She doesn’t want to see what is happening all around her. She doesn’t want ‟some prophet of doom to wipe every smile away.”
In the movie there is a scene where a beautiful blonde boy, a perfect example of the Aryan ideal, sings a song called ‟Tomorrow Belongs to Me.” His voice is angelic and arresting. Soon all those around him, men and women, old and young, join in. Lyrically it is a wonderful ode to the possibilities the future holds. When you realize that within ten years all of these people, men and women, old and young, including the beautiful boy, would be loading other human beings into cattle cars and ovens, the context changes. It is chilling.
What is most chilling is that this is not simply a history lesson. It’s a completely contemporary story of our times. It’s happening right now. We have people shouting all around us that the Future Belongs to Me! Not to everyone, though. Not to the people who are considered Other.
There is a Jewish character in the play named Herr Schultz. He is a love interest for Fräulein Schneider, the landlady. Their engagement party is ruined when a member of the Nazi party informs her that marrying him may not be the wisest decision. She needs a license to run her boarding house, one that may not be renewed. In the end she chooses safety over love.
What struck me most about this is that throughout the play Herr Shultz is in denial that anything could happen to him. He states, ‟I am a German!” He is proud of who he is and simply cannot believe his government would act against its citizens, even if they are Jewish. The Nazi says overtly that because he is Jewish, Herr Schultz is ‟not a German.”
This exchange had a very specific resonance for me. When I was working on the first issue of the Chutz-POW! comic I had the opportunity to sit down and interview a Jewish man named Fritz Ottenheimer. Fritz’s family escaped Germany in 1939 and moved to America. Later Fritz would join the United States army to go fight against his former homeland. He told me the story of his father who owned a clothing store. The elder Ottenheimer had served as a German soldier in World War I. He saw combat and was a decorated veteran. When a young Nazi soldier appeared and told people not to shop at his store he and his neighbors shamed the young man into leaving by claiming he was a German citizen and a veteran. He simply could not believe that his government would do anything to him because of this.
Fritz Ottenheimer’s father spent six months in the death camp at Auschwitz.
This is a true story. The people who led his country had decided that he was an undesirable Other. It didn’t matter what he had been before. It didn’t matter that he was a citizen. All that mattered was that he was a Jew, and the fear-mongering and hatred aimed at all Jews was enough to erase his humanity in the eyes of the general population of Germany.
Choosing your own identity is one thing. Feeling like an outsider is a normal part of growing up. Often we embrace the outsider status as a part of our identity. We become part of a subculture of people who share our values. Any of us who have become part of a musical scene can identify with this. Punks, Metalheads, Rap, Country... take your pick. Comics fans. Sports fans (yes, sports fans... it’s Our team, not some Other team). Religions, mainstream and not so mainstream. Political views. Our race. Our gender. Our sexuality. All of these are ways we define ourselves and all of them involve defining ourselves as Other than something else.
But there’s a big difference between choosing an identity for yourself and having one thrust on you by society, especially when it is an identity that keeps you from enjoying the equality that everyone else takes for granted. When that happens you become the scapegoat and the target of other people’s anger.
It happens all the time. It’s happening right now.
It’s said that the moment you begin to compare someone to Hitler or the Nazis then you have already lost the argument. While I agree that it is far too easy to simply call somebody a Nazi without understanding the full meaning of that term I also don’t think it’s fair to take the comparison off the table entirely. That’s just saying that we should ignore the greatest history lesson of the last hundred years, possibly ever. We can’t learn from the past if we can’t discuss it, and the Holocaust is something that should never be forgotten. It happened and we must be vigilant to make sure that it never happens again.
Some of the questions that are always asked about the Holocaust are, How could this have happened? How could an entire country have allowed this atrocity to take place? Why didn’t anybody speak out against it? There are many complicated answers to these questions, but I think there are some core factors involved. Fear. Anger. Loss of personal control. The psychological need to absolve oneself of responsibility. Blindly following a leader who justifies and preys on your anxiety. The need to scapegoat those you don’t identify with. The need to blame the Other.
How does it happen? Look around. Listen up. This is how it happens.
We recently had a high ranking politician suggest that all Muslims in America should wear an identifying mark so that we would know who they are, and this received a lot of public support. This terrifies me. I’ve spoken with Jews who had to wear the Star of David so that people would know who they were. Eventually that wasn’t enough, so serial numbers were tattooed on their arms. Millions of them died in ovens and mass graves because of this identification. If you don’t think this is the same thing I encourage you to talk to a Holocaust survivor about the family they lost.
Tattooed Jewish children, survivors of Auschwitz.
It is the same thing. This is how it happens.
Recently a friend posted a meme on Facebook. This is someone I’ve known for years. Someone I love. Someone who says they are a Christian. Someone who teaches Sunday school. The picture was of a large automatic weapon and the words on it said something like, ‟I’ve got your welcome for the refugees right here.” This terrifies me. This person who claims membership in a religion where the central lesson is the concept of compassion makes a post that laughingly recommends genocide as an answer. Am I alone in seeing the hypocrisy in teaching the lesson of the Good Samaritan to your children on Sunday and wanting to kill refugee children on Monday?
‟But,” you say, ‟It’s just a funny meme, Ha Ha.” Look at what it’s saying very closely. It says you would rather murder men, women, and children than to actually think about the larger picture and choose compassion. Lean into that sentence hard. You are recommending genocide and you think it is funny. How many steps from there to ovens and mass graves? Recent history tells me not many.
This is how it happens.
I see posts all of the time about supporting our veterans, about how they are the true heroes in our country. We should honor those who died in defense of our American ideal. I agree with both of those things, strongly. My Dad is a veteran (World War II). My great nephew is a veteran (Afghanistan). I have uncles and cousins and friends and many, many loved ones who served, and some who died, in the service of our country. I salute them. I salute every veteran who is buried in Arlington. That includes the Muslim ones, and the Jewish ones, and the gay ones, and every American citizen who ever put on a uniform and made the ultimate sacrifice. Yet here we are, calling some of them terrorists because of their religion, even though that freedom is one of the things they died for, quite possibly fighting against genuine terrorists. If you don’t respect their religion or lifestyle then you make a mockery of their death. They died for freedom too.
We should be vigilant against genuine threats. We should be aware of actual terrorism, whether it comes from terrorists abroad or from those who burn down churches here. But if we engage in mindless hatred and uninformed prejudice then we are all guilty of the very same kind of thinking that we are afraid of. It is a cliché to quote Nietzsche in this context, but here it is... “Beware that, when fighting monsters, you yourself do not become a monster... for when you gaze long into the abyss, the abyss gazes also into you.” Lean hard into that sentence. Are you becoming the same kind of monster you fear?
This has been difficult for me to write. I fully admit to being a lot more like Sally Bowles. I would rather sing and dance and get lost in music and books and comics than to look too closely at the difficult issues around me. I don’t like being the ‟prophet of doom” she sings about in the title song. But I have spent too much time reading about the Holocaust in the last two years to not make the connections. I have lived with the stories of survivors. I have spoken with them. The horror lives on and I fear that no one hears their song of survival. Do I think this post will change a lot of minds? Maybe not. It might lose me some friends. One of the problems with seeing the world through the lens of fear is that it builds a wall around rationality. Anyone outside your personal wall is Other and therefore a threat. So I will, as Bowie says, ‟Put on my red shoes and dance,” knowing that the red shoes refer to a fairy tale with an unhappy ending.
So, old chum, come hear the music play. Because it is playing.